Babysitting

i think its funny...-
how kids can fall asleep
listening to the blasting radio
have their lights on
and the sheets
twisted completely around them.

its weird to remember
how i was once like them
sleeping peacefully,
a dreamy smile on my face..

how i used to dream,
about fuzzy slippers chasing me
and rainbows...
little kittens,
clambering all over me..

i can't remember
when the dreams started to change
metamorphed into black spiders
biting
posioning me...
when i saw my family
ripped away...
my screams falling on deaf ears